a-levels is such a bitch.

but i love my college mates to bits and pieces.

trials going on now, just had qualifying about a month ago.

first edexcel exams are in january.

qualifying in march.

trials in april.

finals in may/june.

watch this space while i slowly die.

like i said, a-levels is a bitch.

mia

I love my college people :')

MIA KTHXBAI.

life

has been pretty damn hectic.

college in the morning, come home in the evening, fall asleep on my bed without even showering, wake up to do homework, study if there are tests.

sometimes i don't even bother doing homework, i just do it during my ridiculously long breaks but i love those breaks.

abrupt ending here.

watch this space.

mmchichimmchi!

this is a tad late.

despite the leeches, the dragging our asses across a muddy field, the cold showers, the hard floors we had to sleep on, the bugs, the rashes on our bums and thighs..

orientation camp was pretty damn awesome.

i definitely want to go back as a facilitator for the july intake camp. and next year's january intake camp. and the next march intake's camp lololol.

gotta love mckl (:

photo credits: jiawen

drained

JUST TO ANSWER EVERYONE'S QUESTION, HOW IS COLLEGE?

• It's been good but a tad boring because of the long breaks but it's still fun
• Lectures so far are okay
• Don't wanna say anything about lecturers cos my psych lecturer can find my blog. But don't worry, nothing bad :P
• If i thought memorizing history was bad, memorizing law is a nightmare. Thank god i like the subject.
• I would've probably died in literature if it weren't for the fact that i love to read
• Psych.. well, i've always been interested in psych so yeah
• I LOVE the campus. It's so pretty
• Everyone's still a little awkward but we're slowly moving out of our own cliques
• Hanging out with my friends from Jan intake is hilarious eventho i'm now classified as crazy stalker girl
• It is tiring. Very. Tiring. I crash early every night now and it's only been a week and a half
• But yay, college! :3

your god is not my god

you deserve to burn in hell for the rest of eternity.

still bored

college in about a week in a half. i iz excite :D

formal wear for orientation which means i have to go raid my closet and if that fails, my mum's closet.

yeah, i'm still lifeless.

so.. watch this space and check out this awesome photo.

i miss cheer ):

invisible

always the bridesmaid, never the bride.

i was stupid enough to believe.

expectation is the root of all heartache.

- william shakespeare

nothing

is happening.

nothing is moving in my life.

everything is just getting a little more screwed up day by day.

the whole "it's a new year so there are new beginnings" doesn't even apply anymore.

everything is the same.

and everyday seems to be getting a little bit lonelier.

but you know what? no one cares.

so, fts.

ps: it's the first day of february. WHAT.

epiphany?

i just finished reading will grayson, will grayson.

and.. i realised i'm kinda like will grayson.

tiny cooper's best friend, not tiny cooper's ex-boyfriend.

it's like i kinda treat my friends how he treats his.

god, i suck. so badly ):

absent

first day of school today for those who are still in school.

first day of college for some of us that already left school.

it felt weird not going back, not waking up at 6am to put on my uniform, not pulling back my hair in that god awful style (which i still do anyway cos my hair annoys me)

it felt weird, breaking the routine i've had for the past eleven years.

it felt like an empty space inside of me.

i can't believe i'm saying this but i DO miss school.

without it, i have absolutely nothing to do besides bumming around and stoning.

college is going to be a whole different story, a whole different life.

different dramas, different people, different experiences.

bring it on.. in 3 months :B

and that's the end of this story

year in and year out i always say the same thing: time flew by too fast.

it's the last day of 2010. what have i got to say about it?

it had its usual ups and downs, mostly downs.

it was a pretty bad year for me, started off awfully but it gradually got better and then it got worse and then it was good again. it was one heck of a roller coaster ride.

i made new friends and definitely found out who'll stick by me when i need them.

i've learned amazing things about dealing with drama as i've had my fair share of them.

i sat for SPM and i graduated from high school. a part of my life that i'm pretty happy to be over with.

i think i studied more this year than i've ever had in my whole life.

i had fun, of course. loads of it.

i can't wait for college to start, to begin everything i've been planning for since the beginning of 2010. i've made at least a thousand "after SPM lists".

i'm not going to do the whole picture post of what i've done like i usually do because honestly, i don't know what else to say about this year. too many things have happened.

how was your year? :)

THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR

merry christmas everyone!

i know it's not christmas today but there are 12 days of christmas so this is still valid >:)

what i've done these past few days:

1) eat

2) spend time with awesome people

3) eat

4) eat

5) eat

6) shop

7) eat

8) get bashed by indonesians cos malaysia won the football match lol

9) eat

CHRISTMAS OBESITY FOR THE WIN! :D

enjoy the rest of your holidays.

back to school in about a week. oh wait, i'm not going :B EHEHEHEHEHEHEH

and because i'm a brat

here is my annual christmas wishlist! :D

(most of the stuff i'll most probably end up not getting/getting myself but what the heck)

1) Charlie McDonnell's 'This is Me' album

2) Harry Potter DVD & book set

3) LOTR extended edition DVD set

4) Clothes (in dire need of this)

5) War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy

6) Stuff for my Project Wall of Awesome

7) Gummy candy :D

8) Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins (meganbb sent me the pdf file but a hard copy would be awesome)

9) Wallet

10) Hair highlights

11) Polaroid camera

12) Philippa Gregory's Tudor series except The Constant Princess and The Other Boleyn Girl

13) John Green books except Abundance of Katherines and Looking for Alaska

14) A DFTBA shirt (nerdfighteria ftw!!!!!)

15) Stationery. Pens, pencils, post its. You get the idea.

16) Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

17) THE PERFECT PAIR OF JEANS THAT FIT PERFECTLY DAMN IT

18) A pretty planner (daily)

20) Harry Potter shirt

21) Chocolate

22) A flat tummy

23) Ear studs

bromance.

an epic day with my girls, megan and alia :D

i don't think you actually need me to explain to you how much fun i had with all the giggles, food and little jokes from the past.

and megan losing her way trying to find us, a la british council date HAHA

watched narnia, which was pretty good.

as alia said on her blog, it is pretty obvious i have a big crush on ben barnes but that man is gorgeous. how is it possible to NOT drool over him?!

i bet the other people in the cinema were annoyed by us making jokes and screaming "bromance!" or "jesus lion!" throughout the whole thing.

the only love story going on in this movie is between edmund and caspian (which didn't turn out because jesus lion most probably didn't approve LOL) and that pairing explains our screams of bromance and giggles during every scene where they were together.

thank god no one threw popcorn at us :B

i ate so much i think i'm going to have to stop eating for the next week or so.

alia left ): but min joined us for dinner and it was quite amusing to watch him driving, talking to the other cars as if they could hear him.

we totally need to "test" a new restaurant soon ;)

ps: aliabb got louis vuitton shoes because i came late. you better love me :P

pps: i never got to try meganbb's nutella cupcakes ):

ppps: if it were possible, i would buy the whole line of nail polish from the face shop.

pppps: WHAT COLOUR SHOULD I DYE MY HAIR?

SPM :O

23/11, BM:

couldn't sleep. woke up panicking (lol) but both papers went pretty well despite some screw ups. TODAY IS ALSO THE DAY CHOCOLATE BECAME THE INSIDE JOKE OF THE '93 BABIES.

(one hour later)

shit, i think i screwed up more than i thought shit shit shit i am so stupid T_T

24/11, English:

woke up in hysterics because i couldn't remember if paper 1 was essay questions or comprehension == might've screwed some stuff up for my essays, used an 8B pencil instead of a 2B to shade in my answers wtfffffff

25/11, Sejarah:

after paper 1: OMG THAT WAS OKAY WHAT

after paper 2: kill me, please.

29/11, Maths:

buttraped hard by paper 1. what was that?! paper 2 was much better. i hope whatever i did is enough to get me my A. i really started tearing up after paper 1. i'm gonna be so angry at myself if i don't get this ):

30/11, Moral:

i actually started liking moral since the start of this year cos i managed to memorise everything so s'all good (:

01/12, Add Maths:

the first day of december was not a pretty one. buttraped HARD by both add maths paper. but i'm one of the few who thought paper 2 was hard which is kinda worrying. okay, gonna forget about add maths till results come out. please god, just give me my credit.

02/12, Physics:

idk what to make of it. it's the same as one of my papers during trials. it was good one one hand, bad on another :S

and i've gotten paranoid about writing my angka giliran wrong (which i did the other day hdfsdhfsjkdb thank god i noticed) but they still check the ic numbers right?

06/12, Chemistry:

few careless mistakes in paper 1 (FFFFFFUUUU), a few screw ups in paper 2, idk what to say about paper 3 tho lol but i'm pretty happy and confident for this subject (: i was in such a good mood after, i decided to clear out part of my cupboard LOL

08/12, Biology:

careless mistakes in paper 1 AGAIN == few problems with paper 2 but it was pretty good overall :D

i also wrote my angka giliran wrong again. what the hell is wrong with me?

AAAAAAAND IT'S OVER!

i feel normal tho :S and my plans of sleeping for 16 hours failed. meh.

but at least we ended it on a good note (:

i can't believe high school is officially officially over.

it gets better

i think everybody should google the trevor project. right now.

it is amazing.

and it gives me hope.

it gives a lot of people hope.

remember, it does get better even if it feels like it never will.

this is not about spm

i think i will break down and cry and bawl my eyes out when i walk out of the cinema after watching part two of harry potter and the deathly hallows.

don't give me that look.

high school graduate

Live, Move, Be Awesome. 5A9, Class of 2010. ♥

Credit: Connie Tan

it's 4.38am.

i'm lying down in the dark, with the laptop in front of me.

in about 3 hours, i will be stepping into school grounds. 5 hours later, i will step out as a high school graduate.

amazing how time flies, isn't it?

i get a stabbing ache in my chest whenever i remember that school's over but i get excited at the same time.

despite the bullshit and drama that i've been through these past 5 years, it's been good and it has taught me so much.

i wonder if the pipes will break tomorrow, when i see everyone hugging each other (IT'S A HUG A CHINESE DAY AS WELL :D), taking last pictures together, writing down phone numbers and email addresses because the next time we step into school, we'll be sitting for spm.

it's all going to be over in a matter of hours. i still can't believe it.

*

last day of school, graduation.

it was kinda touching to see my whole class wearing our shirts, with the "class quote" on it.

oh, there was the usual commotion, picture taking, shirt signing, message writing and all that.

and no tears. thank god. i was already looking like a zombie halfway through the day. but i almost started crying on the way to school because i think that's when reality hit me the most. held it in, didn't want my dad to see me blubbering like an idiot for a stupid reason.

got our class and places for spm.

second row, last table. i get to sit under the fan :D downside is, the head invigilator will be in our room which means more than two invigilators will be with us when we do our papers. god have mercy.

it was a good day :)

no matter how many times i've complained about school, i'm definitely going to miss it.

days to spm: 7

days to freedom: 23

IT'S THE CLIIIIIIIMB

pigtails are magical. MAGICAL!

annoyed beyond reason.

why do i even bother to deal with this after 2 years of bullshit?

CANNOT WAIT TO GET OVER WITH THIS PHASE OF MY LIFE.

boo effing hoo for you if you don't wanna bother with me anymore.

i don't really care.

as i said, i can't wait to get this over and done with.

in other less angry, more stressful news.

11 days to spm. (your heart just started pounding really fast, didn't it? :P)

the final push, the final struggle.

we're so close to freedom.

CAN YOU TASTE IT?

that sweet, sweet taste of liberty. till you know, we start college and then the whole cycle repeats itself.

but personally, i can't wait to start college.

what about you? ;)

days to spm: 11

days to freedom: 28