Friday, December 31, 2010

and that's the end of this story

year in and year out i always say the same thing: time flew by too fast.
it's the last day of 2010. what have i got to say about it?
it had its usual ups and downs, mostly downs.
it was a pretty bad year for me, started off awfully but it gradually got better and then it got worse and then it was good again. it was one heck of a roller coaster ride.
i made new friends and definitely found out who'll stick by me when i need them.
i've learned amazing things about dealing with drama as i've had my fair share of them.
i sat for SPM and i graduated from high school. a part of my life that i'm pretty happy to be over with.
i think i studied more this year than i've ever had in my whole life.
i had fun, of course. loads of it.
i can't wait for college to start, to begin everything i've been planning for since the beginning of 2010. i've made at least a thousand "after SPM lists".
i'm not going to do the whole picture post of what i've done like i usually do because honestly, i don't know what else to say about this year. too many things have happened.

how was your year? :)

Sunday, December 26, 2010

THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR

merry christmas everyone!
i know it's not christmas today but there are 12 days of christmas so this is still valid >:)

what i've done these past few days:
1) eat
2) spend time with awesome people
3) eat
4) eat
5) eat
6) shop
7) eat
8) get bashed by indonesians cos malaysia won the football match lol
9) eat

CHRISTMAS OBESITY FOR THE WIN! :D
enjoy the rest of your holidays.
back to school in about a week. oh wait, i'm not going :B EHEHEHEHEHEHEH

Sunday, December 19, 2010

and because i'm a brat

here is my annual christmas wishlist! :D
(most of the stuff i'll most probably end up not getting/getting myself but what the heck)

1) Charlie McDonnell's 'This is Me' album
2) Harry Potter DVD & book set
3) LOTR extended edition DVD set
4) Clothes (in dire need of this)
5) War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy
6) Stuff for my Project Wall of Awesome
7) Gummy candy :D
8) Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins (meganbb sent me the pdf file but a hard copy would be awesome)
9) Wallet
10) Hair highlights
11) Polaroid camera
12) Philippa Gregory's Tudor series except The Constant Princess and The Other Boleyn Girl
13) John Green books except Abundance of Katherines and Looking for Alaska
14) A DFTBA shirt (nerdfighteria ftw!!!!!)
15) Stationery. Pens, pencils, post its. You get the idea.
16) Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
17) THE PERFECT PAIR OF JEANS THAT FIT PERFECTLY DAMN IT
18) A pretty planner (daily)
20) Harry Potter shirt
21) Chocolate
22) A flat tummy
23) Ear studs

Friday, December 10, 2010

bromance.

an epic day with my girls, megan and alia :D
i don't think you actually need me to explain to you how much fun i had with all the giggles, food and little jokes from the past.
and megan losing her way trying to find us, a la british council date HAHA

watched narnia, which was pretty good.
as alia said on her blog, it is pretty obvious i have a big crush on ben barnes but that man is gorgeous. how is it possible to NOT drool over him?!
i bet the other people in the cinema were annoyed by us making jokes and screaming "bromance!" or "jesus lion!" throughout the whole thing.
the only love story going on in this movie is between edmund and caspian (which didn't turn out because jesus lion most probably didn't approve LOL) and that pairing explains our screams of bromance and giggles during every scene where they were together.
thank god no one threw popcorn at us :B

i ate so much i think i'm going to have to stop eating for the next week or so.
alia left ): but min joined us for dinner and it was quite amusing to watch him driving, talking to the other cars as if they could hear him.

we totally need to "test" a new restaurant soon ;)

ps: aliabb got louis vuitton shoes because i came late. you better love me :P
pps: i never got to try meganbb's nutella cupcakes ):
ppps: if it were possible, i would buy the whole line of nail polish from the face shop.
pppps: WHAT COLOUR SHOULD I DYE MY HAIR?

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

SPM :O

23/11, BM:
couldn't sleep. woke up panicking (lol) but both papers went pretty well despite some screw ups. TODAY IS ALSO THE DAY CHOCOLATE BECAME THE INSIDE JOKE OF THE '93 BABIES.
(one hour later)
shit, i think i screwed up more than i thought shit shit shit i am so stupid T_T

24/11, English:
woke up in hysterics because i couldn't remember if paper 1 was essay questions or comprehension == might've screwed some stuff up for my essays, used an 8B pencil instead of a 2B to shade in my answers wtfffffff

25/11, Sejarah:
after paper 1: OMG THAT WAS OKAY WHAT
after paper 2: kill me, please.

29/11, Maths:
buttraped hard by paper 1. what was that?! paper 2 was much better. i hope whatever i did is enough to get me my A. i really started tearing up after paper 1. i'm gonna be so angry at myself if i don't get this ):

30/11, Moral:
i actually started liking moral since the start of this year cos i managed to memorise everything so s'all good (:

01/12, Add Maths:
the first day of december was not a pretty one. buttraped HARD by both add maths paper. but i'm one of the few who thought paper 2 was hard which is kinda worrying. okay, gonna forget about add maths till results come out. please god, just give me my credit.

02/12, Physics:
idk what to make of it. it's the same as one of my papers during trials. it was good one one hand, bad on another :S
and i've gotten paranoid about writing my angka giliran wrong (which i did the other day hdfsdhfsjkdb thank god i noticed) but they still check the ic numbers right?

06/12, Chemistry:
few careless mistakes in paper 1 (FFFFFFUUUU), a few screw ups in paper 2, idk what to say about paper 3 tho lol but i'm pretty happy and confident for this subject (: i was in such a good mood after, i decided to clear out part of my cupboard LOL

08/12, Biology:
careless mistakes in paper 1 AGAIN == few problems with paper 2 but it was pretty good overall :D
i also wrote my angka giliran wrong again. what the hell is wrong with me?

AAAAAAAND IT'S OVER!
i feel normal tho :S and my plans of sleeping for 16 hours failed. meh.
but at least we ended it on a good note (:
i can't believe high school is officially officially over.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

it gets better


i think everybody should google the trevor project. right now.
it is amazing.
and it gives me hope.
it gives a lot of people hope.
remember, it does get better even if it feels like it never will.

Friday, November 26, 2010

this is not about spm

i think i will break down and cry and bawl my eyes out when i walk out of the cinema after watching part two of harry potter and the deathly hallows.

don't give me that look.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

high school graduate

Live, Move, Be Awesome. 5A9, Class of 2010.
Credit: Connie Tan

it's 4.38am.
i'm lying down in the dark, with the laptop in front of me.
in about 3 hours, i will be stepping into school grounds. 5 hours later, i will step out as a high school graduate.
amazing how time flies, isn't it?
i get a stabbing ache in my chest whenever i remember that school's over but i get excited at the same time.
despite the bullshit and drama that i've been through these past 5 years, it's been good and it has taught me so much.
i wonder if the pipes will break tomorrow, when i see everyone hugging each other (IT'S A HUG A CHINESE DAY AS WELL :D), taking last pictures together, writing down phone numbers and email addresses because the next time we step into school, we'll be sitting for spm.
it's all going to be over in a matter of hours. i still can't believe it.

*

last day of school, graduation.
it was kinda touching to see my whole class wearing our shirts, with the "class quote" on it.
oh, there was the usual commotion, picture taking, shirt signing, message writing and all that.
and no tears. thank god. i was already looking like a zombie halfway through the day. but i almost started crying on the way to school because i think that's when reality hit me the most. held it in, didn't want my dad to see me blubbering like an idiot for a stupid reason.

got our class and places for spm.
second row, last table. i get to sit under the fan :D downside is, the head invigilator will be in our room which means more than two invigilators will be with us when we do our papers. god have mercy.

it was a good day :)
no matter how many times i've complained about school, i'm definitely going to miss it.

days to spm: 7
days to freedom: 23

Friday, November 12, 2010

IT'S THE CLIIIIIIIMB

pigtails are magical. MAGICAL!

annoyed beyond reason.
why do i even bother to deal with this after 2 years of bullshit?
CANNOT WAIT TO GET OVER WITH THIS PHASE OF MY LIFE.
boo effing hoo for you if you don't wanna bother with me anymore.
i don't really care.
as i said, i can't wait to get this over and done with.

in other less angry, more stressful news.
11 days to spm. (your heart just started pounding really fast, didn't it? :P)
the final push, the final struggle.
we're so close to freedom.
CAN YOU TASTE IT?
that sweet, sweet taste of liberty. till you know, we start college and then the whole cycle repeats itself.
but personally, i can't wait to start college.
what about you? ;)

days to spm: 11
days to freedom: 28

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

memories

surfing through my facebook photos.
fond memories, good times.
some of them beyond ridiculous.
yes, spm is in less than a month and i'm reminiscing. shut up.
(most, or all, pictures are from last year. and not in order)

good friday '09

first performance as warriorz, sports day '09

blood donation drive '09

rading the most awesome shop of shirts, ever. hatyai '09

BARACK OBAMA OF INTERACT (i do not recall wth that was), cheer '09

warriorz, stompers, falcons, vivacious, cheer '09

shabu shabu with the girls, '09

DISSECTION, biology '09


our idea of hanging out. j.co, times square '09

kar lei's farewell, '08. missing you like hell, bb girl.

tuition @ ideal, '08

icc '09. best journey throughout kl on public transport :')

cirque belacan '08

first triumphant moments of cheer, '08

interact iu day, '08

first moments of my cheering life, sports day '08

c3 '09

sweet 16th, '09

idek what to say LOL study group '08

pre-spm days, i want you back ):

days to spm: 20
days till the end of school: 36(?)

kthxbai!

Friday, October 29, 2010

fonkiuzed

SAM? Foundation? A-Levels?

Law? Psychology? Tourism? Media? Graphics? Language? Events management?

Australia? Singapore? UK?

confused girl is confused.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

panicked

i am so sick and tired of spm.
everywhere i go it's like spm spm spm spm spm spm x364345093445
sign on to twitter, more than half my timeline are the form 5's talking about studying, counting down the days, having panic attacks, doing study spams.
sign on to facebook, see status updates about the same things.
anywhere i go, somehow i will find something relevant to spm == or at least my brain will find some way to connect it.
LITTLE BOY PUSHING WEIGHING SCALE TO 14KG AND THE ONLY THING I COULD SAY WAS "140 NEWTONS!" WTH?
every single conversation i have leads to spm.
i was just texting meganbb about BOYS and then we complained about it. not boys, spm lol. yeah, i don't see the connection either.
constantly getting panic attacks multiple times in a day.
i want this to be over so badly but i don't want spm to be here so soon cos i need more time. we all need more time.
uggghhh, i'm going to start pulling my hair out.
can i just go hide under my blanket until everything is done?

even this post has the word spm repeated so many friggin times ==

days to spm: 20.. something. i'm lazy to go check my planner
days till the end of schoo: +17 days to the day spm starts. i think.

Monday, October 25, 2010

CHAINUH

was amazing.
surprisingly.
seeing as i wasn't looking forward to the trip to begin with.
and now i'm back for only 2 days and i'm already missing it.
it was kind of a tiny escape from everything over here.
and spm lololol.
which is in 28 days.
i would blog about the whole trip but then it'll be too long and it'll take me forever to remember everything so i'll just post the pictures on facebook soon. i hope.
but yes, the trip was awesome.
spent time with the extended family.
met new people.
FINALLY GOT TO BALIK KAMPUNG HAHA
ate the same variety of food for 8 friggin days. not fun.
i'm craving for mcd's now ):

i also came back home sick.
i blame the weather.

kthxbai!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

recap

27/09:
hate bm. paper 2 went well. paper 1 uhh.. i think i terpesong ): and the ending for my part a was damn shitty cos my contact lens decided to be a bitch ==
i am thanking google if i get higher than a C.

28/09:
english was.. idek what to say about it. kena mindrape sikit by paper 1.
paper 2 was better besides the fact i got handcramps while writing super long ass essay in which meganbb calls me a wuss HAHA

29/09:
maths was.. meh. so many careless mistakes that could've boosted my total percentage ): i feel so dumb now.
surprisingly found paper 1 easier than paper 2. which you know, is not normal.

30/09:
add maths paper was mindrape at its best. that's all i'm going to say.

01/10:
shouldn't have been paranoid over the stupid definitions that i had already memorised since first term and should've concentrated on stupid kandungan akademik.
was asked to list out the badan sukarelawan or something along those lines and rela came into my mind but then i convinced myself my brain was making desperate attempts, contorting words into answers from the questions, to give answers so i didn't write it down and it was a correct answer ==
and dear government, "apakah kepentingan cukai kepada negara?" are you guys trying to tell us something?

04/10:
biology was.. meh. wrote a whole load of bullshit in paper 2. spelled vertabrae as vertabrae. TWO MARKS I KNEW I COULD'VE HAVE GOTTEN STUPID CARELESS MISTAKES DFKJNSDFNS

06/10:
bio and chem paper 3. i have absolutely no idea what to say about the papers, srsly.
on one hand it was, like megan says, a bitch and four pups. but on the other hand it went pretty smooth :S

07/10:
sejarah went really well ehehehhe besides the fact that paper 1 was a little difficult.
3 MORE SUBJECTS, 6 MORE PAPERS. AJA!

08/10:
chemistry paper 1 was mindrape right there. like wth was up with that paper?!
so exhausted right now i can't even think properly.

11/10:
"diagram shows three boxes in contact with each other. which of the following temperatures show that they're in thermal equilibrium?"
dumbest question ever HAHA
paper 2 was ):
ONE MOAR PAPER

12/10:
stupid submarine experiment make me stress (thanks ah, howie :P) then i found out which experiment it was and i only read it 10 minutes before the paper.
i hope i didn't screw my formulas up :S

TRIALS ARE OVER *hippo dance*
next, SPM.

days to spm: 41
days till the end of school: 57

kthxbai!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

10/10/10

things i did:

- woke up at 5.30am for the walk for sight. not fun when you've only had 2 hours of sleep
- led someone blindfolded on friggin main roads (which is not easy) and got ditched by bala and chris who cheated wtf
- almost made 3 people fall into the drain cos i said left instead of right HAHA
- recalled bad memories and made new awesome ones at a&w
- slept for 4 hours eventho i was only supposed to sleep for 2. but whatev, sleep = good
- photographed and babysat kids while stealing all their food ehehehe
- panicked over physics and then decided to not care and slept through the whole night (kinda regret it, kinda don't)
- missed 10:10:10 ): now i have to wait for 11:11:11 on 11/11/11

random thing of the day:
after the walk and we were all sitting down and chilling, i was folding an rm10 note into a heart. suddenly, this lady comes up to me and points at something asking to change it. i looked down and saw the badge the leos gave us for free so i thought she wanted to change it for her son. turns out she wanted to exchange my folded rm10 note for an unfolded one wtf.

it was a pretty good day (:

days to spm: 44
days till the end of school: 60

kthxbai!

Friday, October 8, 2010

megan chng's bio lesson

with this lesson, you will never fail.
i told her she'll be teaching my kids LOLOLOL
(this was taken from skype btw so it's basically her talking to me lol not an actual lesson she typed out for the world, which she did do on twitter tho)

THE VERTEBRAL COLUMN
YOUR SPINE HORRR GOT 33 BONES
7 + 12 + 5 + 5 + 4
7 cervical, 12 thoracic, 5 lumbar, 5 sacral ,4 caudal
first two in the cervical got special names coz they special lah!
the first one is called the atlas, and it has a massive vertebral foramen, coz it's where the spinal cord first goes into from the brain, so its like bigger than the rest of the bones coz the spinal cord tapers down as it goes down
2nd cervical vertebra is called the axis. axis, like how it sounds like, allows the head to turn left and right, with this thing called the ODONTOID process (ok how can you not remember a name like odontoid. its like, pikachu. memorable. wtf) then there's the rest of the cervical vertabrae that no one gives a fuck about. all cervical vertebrae have transverse foramen which are holes that allow blood vessels and nerves to pass. anything with a 'foramen' is basically an opening for stuff to go through
NOW WE GOT THORACIC VERTEBRAE
12, because we got 12 pairs of ribs. dere4 (wtf) the ribs articulate with the thoracic vertebrae. they have spinous processes that are LONG and pointed DOWNWARDS like YO MAMA'S DICK (what the fuck?) spinous and transverse processes are points of attachment for muscles and ligaments.
next we have the lumbar vertebrae, 5. now lumbar is exactly what is sounds like. FAT AND ROUND LOL it has a massive centrum, which is bigger than any other kind of vertebrae coz the lumbar vertebrae have to support the majority of the upper body's weight. so like ya. huuuuugeee centrums, and they're rounder than the rest of the vertebrae. they're kind of like the sumos of the vertebrae family
now we have the 5 sacral and the 4 caudal. the 5 sacral bones fuse to form the sacrum, which is one big bone. i have no idea why they couldn't have just categorised it as ONE bone instead of 5.. but ok.
the 4 caudal bones fuse to form the coccyx, which is under the sacrum. again, one bone, but considered as four fused into one what the fuck

K SUPPORT SYSTEM IN PLANTS
AQUATIC PLANTS GOT 2 TYPES
submerged plants have thin, flexible leaves so that they won't be fucked over when the currents of the water decide to rape them with their pulling and pushing action, they also have air sacs to stay upright
floating plants are like submerged plants... except they float. WTF. they have broad leaves that are flexible enough to withstand the buttraping from the waves
they also have aerenchyma tissues in the stems + leaves, which is like a fancy way of saying they have air sacs -_-

OOGENESIS
OOGENESIS BEGINS EVEN BEFORE WE'RE FUCKEN BORN, BECAUSE SOME MOTHERFUCKER DECIDED TO MAKE US AS COMPLEX AS HELL. (i think his name is god, but whatever)
SO. primordial germ cells mitosis into OOGONIUM. which grow into PRIMARY OOCYTES
then the primary oocytes get fancy dresses(follicle cells) and a fancy new name, primary follicles, but people still call them primary oocytes too which gives us a mindfuck like hello identity crisis much? but whatver
so the primary follicle/primary oocyte undergoes meiosis until PROPHASE 1 ONLY.
THEN, A BABY GIRL IS BORN. *shining light*
fast forward to puberty,
the primary oocyte completes meiosis 1 to become some deformed motherfucker because they're not equal, the 1st polar body is smaller than the 2ndary oocyte
then the 2ndary oocyte undegoes meiosis II UNTIL METAPHASE II BECAUSE FOR FUCK'S SAKE LIKE WOMEN THEY NEVER SEE TO MAKE THEIR MINDS UP ABOUT ANYTHING. but because they're like women they like clothes too so they get a new set of digs so now they're a 2ndary follicle too
the 1st polar body also unergoes meiosis II but no one gives a fuck because they ended up being the sacrificial lamb anyway so boo freaking hoo moving on
the 2ndary oocyte starts to grow in the 2ndary follicle (stupid mofo never wanna make their mind up but oookay.) the 2ndary FOLLICLE grows into this big badass motherfucker called the GRAFFIAN FOLLICLE
EVERY 28 FUCKEN DAYS, THE GRAFFIAN FOLLICLE ATTACHES ITSELF TO THE OVARIAN WALL AND FUCKEN EXPLODES, RELEASING THE HIROSHIMA BOMB THAT IS THE 2NDARY OOCYTE.
this explosion is known as ovulation
IF PENETRATION (in both senses) OCCURS, meiosis II is complete. ya, stupid 2ndary oocyte is like bella swan, cannot continue anything unless it a sparkly motherfucker to penetrate her. i mean. sperm.
2ndary oocyte forms the ovum, which is where the magic happens
as well as the 2nd polar body, which, again, no one gives about. poor mofo.
IF NO PENETRATION/SECKS OCCURS, AND AFTER THE EXPLOSION OF THE GRAFFIAN FOLLICLE, it develops into corpus luteum, which will degenerate and end up staining our beds, our underwear and make us feel like renesmee is trying to be the cutthroat bitch that se is
if secks occurs, the corpus luteum stays and continues producing progesterone and oestrogen.
nanananannana BATMAN!

btw, i like it on your table ;)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

unmotivated

i've only sat for one week of papers.
5 subjects.
9 papers.
i have 5 (because we have to sit for sivik ==) subjects to go, 12 papers more.
i'm already so unmotivated.
someone gimme semangat can? ):

Monday, September 27, 2010

i hate bm

"jika anda mencampuri bahan kimia tanpa something something, it will explode" - Lydia Wong

BM FAIL HAHAHA
this is why i hate bm ==
but everytime i look at that sentence, i burst out laughing.
:'D

Friday, September 24, 2010

a helping hand

THIS IS A PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT!
i've always wanted to say that HAHA okay back to business.


On the 10th of October (Sunday), the Lions Clubs International will be organizing a charity event called the Walk for Sight.
It is in conjunction with Lions World Sight Day. This event is in aid of the Lions Eye Clinic that is going to help the blind.

The concept of the walk is really interesting. (Please note that you have to come in pairs okay (: unless you don't mind being paired up with a random stranger lulz)
One of you will be blindfolded (so that you can experience what a blind person goes through) and the other person will have to lead the blindfolded person to the finish line.
It's simple and imagine all the fun you'll have trying to guide your friend!
Plus, it'll help you if you ever need to lead a blind person next time.

When? Sunday, 10th of October at 6.30am*
Where? Dewan Sivik, MBPJ, Jalan Yong Shook Lin, Petaling Jaya (map to the place below)
How much? Only rm10.** And remember that it's all for a good cause!

We would really appreciate it if you could attend and help those in need.
Spread the word and bring your family and friends! The more the merrier right?

If you are interested, please don't hesitate to contact me on facebook, twitter, email (lydzmhippo@gmail.com) or if you have my phone number, you could always give me a call/send me a text!

*try to ignore the fact that you might have to wake up at 5am in the morning to get there. as i've said, it is for a good cause and you will be doing a good deed and for that, God will love you and you will go to heaven, heehee (:
** one rm10 ticket admits 2 so it's rm5 per person.

p/s: i know that most of us who are still in school will be having our pmr/trials/finals but it will only be a few hours so lend a hand if you have the time!

Map to venue:

Thursday, September 23, 2010

bring it on

trials start next week.
well, it already started for some of us.
i am nowhere near finishing the whole syllabus T_T (hopefully i will be done by the time spm rolls around)
second last exam in my schooling life.
BRING IT ON!

trials timetable:
27/09 Monday: BM 1&2
28/09 Tuesday: English 1&2
29/09 Wednesday: Mod Maths 1&2
30/09 Thursday: Add Maths 1&2
01/10 Friday: Moral
04/10 Monday: Biology 1&2
06/10 Wednesday: Biology 3 & Chemistry 3
07/10 Thursday: Sejarah 1&2
08/10 Friday: Chemistry 1&2
10/10 SUNDAY: WALK FOR SIGHT (more in the next post ehehe)
11/10 Monday: Physics 1&2
12/10 Tuesday: Physics 3
13/10 Wednesday: Sivik*

2 and a half weeks of torture.
bring on the late nights, the stress, the tears and the hand cramps.

days to trials: 3
days to spm: 60
days to the end of school: 76

kthxbai!

*i cannot believe we still have to sit for a sivik paper. can i skip this ah ==

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

security blanket, please?

insecurities.
they play a pretty big role in all our lives.
i hate admitting i'm an insecure person, it's true that i am a very insecure person.
whenever i feel down, a tiny voice inside my head constantly criticizes me, telling me i'm not good enough and that i will never make it far in life.

i've asked myself "what am i good at, what are my strengths" a million and one times and i can never come up with an answer.
i'm surrounded by brilliant people who have talents that i am envious of.
michelle has arts, kate and rachel have sports, jo lynn is smart and has music, megan has dance and brains, alia has graphics, japafreakingnese and she's also one of the smartest people i know.
not to mention the rest of the people i know who are extremely talented and gifted.
i love them but sometimes when i stand next to them or even when i talk to them, i feel so unaccomplished, so unworthy.

being a girl, i am obviously insecure about how i look.
my hair, my face, my clothes, my body.
i see an absolutely gorgeous girl somewhere and i cringe internally.
i binge eat because i'm an emotional eater and then i beat myself up, telling myself that i'm such a pig.
i see a skinny girl walking on the street and instantly my mind goes "why can't i look like that? why are my thighs so big? why are my arms so flabby?" and so on.
but i don't have enough discipline to make myself stop eating so much (i love food too much) or to go on a proper diet.

a few months back, i found youtube videos of my old friends from dance class at competitions/performances.
and geez, they're friggin good.
then i felt regret for stopping lessons. and after that, i felt guilt for not trying hard enough in anything i do. i still feel all of that.
this just eats away until you just feel like crawling into a hole and hiding for the rest of your life.

people have told me to focus on spm because then i can prove my worth.
but i don't even have enough discipline to sit down for hours to cram information into my head without getting distracted.
being able to do that would be a miracle.

all this reminds me of a quote from abundance of katherines by john green (awesome author, go read his books).
"what is the point of being alive if you don't at least try to do something remarkable?"
i want to matter, to be able to leave behind something besides being known as the girl who did well for spm (which will hopefully happen because if it doesn't, there wouldn't be anything relatively remarkable about me to say).

sometimes these insecurities just take over my whole brain and then i feel like killing myself. (well, not literally lol)
sometimes i just wanna be something, to feel like i belong. ):

Friday, September 10, 2010

antisocial nerd 8D

mmm, i sense this is going to be another disjointed post cos all the things i wanted to blog about were running across my head last night while i was trying to get some sleep.
at 4am == don't you hate it when that happens?

raya holidays nao.
it's actually raya today so selamat hari raya to all ze muslim friends!
save some rendang for me!
what i've been doing the whole holidays?
stoning at home and studying. i am such an antisocial nerd.

*

i unleashed my inner fangirl by blasting kpop music and singing along to them in the shower last night, half an hour to raya.
i also bought 3D toy story stickers (idk why i keep saying/typing tickets) and glow sticks.
aren't i cool?

*

i knew something was supposed to go here, i just can't remember what.. mmmmmm :/
oh, now i remember.
WEIGHT LOSS CHALLENGE EHEHEHEH
no, i'm completely serious.
me along with michelle, kar lei (no idea why she has to lose any more weight ==) and kate (?) are all on a weight loss challenge. and bala. but he has to PUT ON weight.
so, who wants to go exercise? :D

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boon jhoe dropped off 5 add maths books for me the other day.
i swear i've never been so spirited to do add maths, ever.
despite maybe some loss of hair (or greying of hair), this is a good sign (Y)

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spm? let's read something from meganbb's blog.

"bumped into mae at one utama yesterday. she was lugging her biology ref book around with her. today lydiabb brought her addmaths ref book to one u as well. a few hours ago, aliabb's dad reprimanded her for trying to sneak her sejarah reference into her handbag. a few days ago, lydia, latifah and i got into a fight on twitter on effort vs outcome.

SPM's doing some pretty intense shit to us, I swear."

need i say more?
all of this btw, is true.

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lydia the antisocial nerd.
as you have read above, i brought my add maths book along with me to one utama.
well, i'll be lugging my books everywhere from now on.
what did i do before our food arrived? add maths.
what did i do after i finished eating? add maths.
then i met up with annette and spent an hour with her at her dad's shop.
what did i do the whole time i was there? add maths.
what did i do at ti's place after leaving ou? that's right, you guessed it. add maths!
what is my life?

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i want a polaroid camera (:
and a portrait lens.
and a macbook.
SPM, GET READY TO BE PWNED.

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i really need to get out of the house D:

days to trials: 17
days to spm: 74
days to the end of school: 90

kthxbai!
after thought: this post wasn't a really disjointed one. it was mostly about spm wtf.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

dear spm

i think most of you already know i went to singapore last weekend and i loved it.
might even go there to study since daddy asked me to think about it. (note to self: look up courses there)
the shopping is awesome, the place is absolutely gorgeous, the food not as awesome (LOL) but hey, it'll help me lose weight right?
and i think i'll just leave it at that before i jizz all over the keyboard.

life has been pretty slow. but then every time i think that, i remember spm and i go all KJSDBHFJKSDBGSBDFK.
two plus months left, you gaiz.
and then high school is over and all of us move on to the next chapter and that idea just scares the shit out of me eventhough i've been constantly saying that i can't wait to get out of school (which is true) but i just can't imagine life without school anymore ):

raya break this year gonna suck balls since all of us will have our noses buried in our books, bleh.

dear spm,
i hate you.
love, lydia.

days to trials: 23
days to spm: 80
days till the end of school*: 96

kthxbai!

* this is based on my spm timetable, not sure about yours :P

Thursday, August 26, 2010

happy thoughts (:

went through some of my old posts and as retarded as i was, i found a few things that made me smile (:

"Yesss my sayangs, I know that all of you probably sleep at 4 and wake up at 6 just for a REFRESHINGLY AWESOME seven hours of cheerleading or WHATEBA, but us normal people usually function with at least 300 minutes of slumberland, okayyy? *sticks tongue out* I want Sunday, goshhh." - Alia Astaman

`MgnChng says:
she LOVESS YOU
`MgnChng says:
she wants to have your babies.
`MgnChng says:
XD
Lydia-O Bibo says:
sorry, i don't have sperms
Lydia-O Bibo says:
HAHAHAHHAHA
`MgnChng says:
or so you think
Lydia-O Bibo says:
DUDE
Lydia-O Bibo says:
HAHAHA
Lydia-O Bibo says:
HOW WOULD YOU KNOW IF I DIDN'T KNOW
Lydia-O Bibo says:
WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING TO ME DURING OUR SLEEPOVERS
`MgnChng says:
.........................
`MgnChng says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHA
`MgnChng says:
WTF
`MgnChng says:
AAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHAHAAHAHA
`MgnChng says:
OH NOEZ, I HAZ BIN CAUGHT.

i absolutely love this picture.
i miss moments like this ):
we're all so tied up in our own schedules, classes, social events and yeah.
spm, thanks for ruining my life. now please be over and done with asap.

kthxbai!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

disjointed

so, hai :D
looks like i kinda lost my mojo and my blog has started collecting cobwebs in the corners.
but i haz reasons!
1) my computer is being retarded. got it fixed but now it doesn't wanna let me use the internet
2) i've been busy.
this post will be very disjointed, my thoughts are all over the place right now.

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these past two weeks have been amazing, if i say so myself.
well, amazing based on the crappy weeks that preceded them.
and i haven't fallen asleep in class for ages, hohoho. *proud*

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spm is 99 days awaaaaaaaaaaay omgwtfbbqsaucenomnomnom
yeah, i should probably go study now.

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MY 16 YEAR OLD COUSIN IS ALREADY APPLYING FOR COLLEGE EVENTHOUGH HE STILL HAS ONE MORE YEAR OF SCHOOL LEFT AND ME?
I'M STILL CONFUSED.
PSYCH, LAW, MASS COMM, JOURNALISM, GRAPHIC/INTERIOR DESIGNING.
and like.. other stuff omg.

oh and then there are the scholarships to cambridge and oxford.
and like, yeah.
(lydia, spm first okaaaay)

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CURRENT LIST OF THINGS TO DO AFTER SPM:
- dance classes (latin, hip hop, contemp, jazz)
- music lessons (guitar/drums/piano)
- hangul lessons
- CHEERCHEERCHEER
- photography courses
- driving lessons
- college stuff (yes, college stuff.)
- els courses (?)

and this is not including the 43892830 things that the friends are planning to do bleh.
my planner is gonna go nuts.

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now for the past events that i've missed blogging about:

1) haelee's 5th birthday party
- why do kids have such cool birthday parties nowadays?
- sucks doing a magic show for people under the age of like, 8 LOL
- i gained weight fsdkjbfgkxzdjgfbkjdfb

2) prefects farewell
- twas kinda awesome seeing as i wasn't really looking forward to it.
- i'm gonna miss this when school ends ):

3) hippo bonding sesh
- what was supposed to be a cramming session at megan's place became a camwhoring, gossiping and whatever else besides studying session LOL
- i'm gonna miss this since spm is so near ):

4) aunty susie's fabulous 60th
- which was last night btw. it was awesomeeeeee.
- spent time catching up with the cousins from singapore and now i can't wait to go in two weeks!
- i think my camera went crazy from too much redness wtf.

yeah okay this post makes no sense at all.
kthxbai!

Monday, July 26, 2010

"does this count as annoying?"

life's been pretty uneventful the past two weeks after the horrid weeks i've had before it.
exhibition day was good.
i will never forget running around a muddy field and throwing water balloons with my best friends.
and neck massages heeheee :3
computer still isn't working which is basically the reason why i haven't been updating.
so much shit to finish up when it's finally back home, meehh.

stay tuned!
kthxbai!

p/s: DESPICABLE ME IS SO KIUT, I AM GOING TO KIDNAP AGNES

Saturday, July 17, 2010

and the suckfest continues

the suckfest obviously did not end last week ==
my computer died on me.
fml.

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couldn't be bothered to update at all this week LOL
was another rather bad week but it had moments of awesome that i will never forget.
like the crazy sleepover that we haven't had for months.
and gummy bears, heehee.

COMPUTER STILL NOT WORKING SDKJFBSKJFBIJSDBF

Sunday, July 11, 2010

we are proud of you, say we are proud of you!

ORANGE WHITE AND BLACK, D*STARZ NUMBER ONE!

i can't believe argentina lost T_T
stupid octopus, pscht.

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misread signals, insecurities, walls of solitude.

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omg, playing badminton after about a year without it was awesome :D
sooo fun.
i think we're gonna end up doing this every pe class LOL

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breakdown #3 of 2010.
whoo.
at least half the year is already done.
FIVE. MORE. MONTHS.

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thanks to my brother, everyone thinks i'm going to marry paul the octopus if germany wins.
yeah, you're going to have mutant babies.
thanks ==
(AN: SPAIN WON LALALA *HIPPO DANCE*)

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from what was supposed to be a good day turned into a suckfest ==
this week has just been total bullshit.
i cannot wait for cheer this weekend.

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evil vampire baby trying to claw its way out of my uterus right nao.
yes, that was a breaking dawn pun and it proves how much it hurts.
shit better not happen tomorrow.

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first day of cheer and d*starz makes it to the top 15!
so proud of you girls :D

blue fingernails for stompers, heehee.

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looks like the bullshit didn't end on friday ==

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HELL YES, D*STARZ FTW!
best showmanship, best make-up and fifth place overall!
so proud :D
3 awards at SOX, 3 awards at nationals.
it's the friggin year of orange!

congrats to stompers for placing fourth!

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HELL YEAH, SPAIN WON THE WORLD CUP
*HIPPO DANCE*

Sunday, June 27, 2010

tgif

prefectorial board of 2009/2010

i'm afraid to say something in case it makes it worse.
but i'm scared if i don't say something, things will continue going downhill.

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didn't go to school today, heeheehee.
extra hours of sleep, ftw.

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i totally fail at writing with my left hand, omg LOL

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looks like my cycle of afternoon nap sessions have been disrupted by not doing it for a week.
i miss them :(
because if i don't get those naps, i'm extra tired and zombie-like, ugh.
(yes, i'm a lazy pig. so what? :P)

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mr chee said open day is on the 10th.
which is the same day as the first day of cheer.
and then someone else said it's on the 17th.
which is the same day as vi's campfired.
why is this my life ._.

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photoshopping people's faces to make them look pretty make my eyes hurt.
ow.
you people better love me for doing this :P

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such a tiring week T_T
been up till almost 2am every night trying to finish up work.
TGIF.

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sleeping in on a rainy saturday morning has got to be one of the best things in life.
especially if you get more than 8 hours of sleep after a week of only sleeping an average of 4 hours a day.
i hope next week goes better.

kthxbai!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

fail a bit

BFFs

hai.
so it's tuesday and i'm already dying. yeah.
school has been boring, i think i've fallen asleep in class a few times already cos there's nothing to do ==
(i woke up today with 4 monkeys staring at me. a normal monkey, a pink gay monkey, a cross breed of monkey+bear and a fairy monkey)

so laik, i have a performance this saturday.
and oh my god, it's like cheer all over again with practice.
how the hell did i do it for a year?

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i have a feeling i'll be a a zombie for the rest of the week.

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damn, it's already friday.
this week flew by so fast o.o
i love being busy.

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gurh, bad day bad day bad day.
AND WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE ON FRIDAY?!
fml.
brb, gonna go on a killing spree.

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so much for thinking you were trying to make things alright again.
thanks for making me hope for the best.
now, can you decide if you want me in your life or not?

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performance fail a bit HAHA
but it was really fun :) no, really.
and then dinner at pizza hut and mamak session after with the brother, millie and meganbb.
more fun :D

and then the day ended badly wtfe.
oh well.

the rest of the year's going to be boring T_T

kthxbai!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

here we go again

owise, spongebob.

(AN: this post is from the whole 2 weeks of term-break in case you get confused, but i don't think i have a lot of readers.)

you know what i hate?
post-camp syndrome.
which is falling sick.
ugh, i feel like a zombie.

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this stupid cough has made me drink so much water i think i go to the toilet at least 15 times a day, maybe even more.
and the medicine made it worse T_T

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major shopping session today, heehee.
burnt a hole in my wallet.
a handbag, a dress and two shirts.
i'm not even half done with my shopping list ==
MONEY WELL SPENT :D
(does anyone know where to buy nice jackets with hoodies :/)

and oh my god, at least 97% of the shops we went into at times square was playing some lady gaga song.
if it wasn't lady gaga, it was beyonce or kesha or some random chinese song.
but one shop was playing dbsk, heehee.

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there's nothing to do online anymore.
i just keep switching from tab to tab and stoning.
i should find something more productive to do with my life.
LIKE STUDYING FOR SPM

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i may not be the prettiest, the most polite, the most understanding or the most kind person but i sure as hell am a loyal person.
i wasn't put here for you to take me for granted.

*

in this past week, my daily lunch only included instant noodles, pasta and fast food.
HELLO, WEIGHT GAIN!

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watching ranma 1/2 again.
epic anime is epic.
brings back so much memories :')
i fell in love with him LOL
embarrassing but true.

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hippo convention today was good :D
filled with cupcakes, flying + synchronized swimming piglets, good food, bonding sessions, spazzing over korean idols and stationery and reading in silence.
ilubugirls :)

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finally finally finished watching season 6 of grey's anatomy.
HOW CAN THEY END THE SEASON JUST LIKE THAT WITH SO MANY THINGS HANGING T_T
dr. jackson avery is hot.
note to self: find out who he is.

and today, i WILL start my add maths project.

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went out with the girls today for movies.
i never actually noticed how hot ashton kutcher is.
and his body omg and his arms. DID YOU SEE HIS ARMS? *drool*

and i spent even more money today ==
i think i spent at least 200 bucks this past 2 weeks.
i am now going to walk around with an empty wallet to prevent myself from buying more stuff.

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shopping with ze marder at mid today.
so much for not spending anymore.
bought a handbag, a dress, a pair of flats and a pair of ballet flats :D
but the stupid shop didn't have the baby pink ballet flats in stock so i had to buy black, pscht.

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spent bbq night being socially awkward and making new friends through card games.
highlight of the night was walking in the dark to sri aman and then standing in the middle of a roundabout trying to figure out which way to go with min and then getting a joy ride from iryan :D
oh, i am now known as megan because someone thought toofie called me megan.
nice.

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just got back from entertaining a bunch of kids with meganbb.
twas awesome.
we did manicures and tattoos.
we ended up giving ourselves manicures and tattoos as well because we were bored LOL
this would be a really good business.
maybe we should do it besides the whole underwear idea :D

OMG ONE MORE DAY OF HOLIDAYS LEFT T_T

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i see you desperately trying to patch things up.
i want things to be okay but i'm afraid of letting you back in.

*

so, school starts tomorrow.
that's kind of depressing.

on a more brighter note: i now have toy story exam pads.
i am officially cool.

kthxbai!

so how did you get here under my skin? swore that i'd never let you back in
should've known better than trying to let you go. cos here we go go go again.
hard as i try, i know i can't quit. something about you is so addictive
we're falling together, you'd think that by now i'd know
cos here we go go go again.

Monday, June 7, 2010

because it deserves its own post

highlights of camp:

1) thinking we were staying at the ns camp and cursing our butts off
2) finding out we weren't actually staying at an ns camp LOL
3) completing the obstacle course /proud
4) getting buttgrabbed to finish the obstacle course
5) jungle trekking in the middle of the night
6) thinking we lost someone while jungle trekking
7) almost peeing in my pants while jungle trekking
8) holding on to ronnie and bala's hands really tight during jungle trekking because i was scared shitless
9) gossiping at the mamak till 4am
10) sleeping only 2 hours on the first night
11) waking up instantly after hearing siang ho's voice LOL
12) noticing a hot guy from another school and betting that michelle would find him hot (which she did)
13) completing the high rope course /proud
14) the awesomeness of the projects
15) falling asleep at the mamak
16) how fast everyone went to sleep on the second day
17) not noticing that the electricity went off for at least 2 hours till the next morning
18) gossiping with all the girls in the dorm
19) clapping and screaming at a cow who was peeing while we were on the bus

not so fun stuff:

1) falling sick after camp
2) falling sick after camp
3) falling sick after camp

twas such an awesome weekend.
pictures will be up on facebook soon :)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

you were a priority, was i an option?

old picture is old and amusing.
i miss you girls.

add maths paper 2 was easier than it normally was.
it's either i'm starting to understand or there was something going on that i didn't catch on :S
the effects of sleep deprivation has started showing itself.
and i'm only going to get sufficient sleep on sunday night because of prefects camp which apparently needs to us to be awake at 7am, wtfe.

being a music guinea pig now.
i miss those days LOL

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i am in desperate need of a shopping spree.
who wants to have some girl time?!

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screwed for chemistry.
i'll most probably be awake the whole night unless i fall asleep.
which will result in me getting mindraped, again.
ugh.
TWO. MORE. DAYS.

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everyone was so into the spirit of team work today!
LOL

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current term break schedule (will be updated):
  • 4th-6th: Prefects' Camp
  • 8th: Times Square with Jen Ai & Shin Wei & Michelle (?)
  • 9th: Study session/sleepover/outing with the bffsShopping @ Times Square with Michelle
  • 12th13th: Hippo Convention @ KLCC
  • 16th: ICSA IU Day/Film Fest Movies @ Mid
  • 18th: BBQ Night
and other unplanned things.
and daily schedule will include working on project wall of awesome, cleaning out my room and wardrobe, looking around for college programmes, planning my SPM study schedule.

is it really june already?

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you'd think i'd be as happy as a unicorn (excuse the lame metaphor) since midterms are over (sivik and pj papers don't count).
but it's a bad day ==
come back home to some idiotic things and got mindraped during school hours by bio and sejarah.
WHY IS THIS MY LIFE?!

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off to camp tomorrow!
omo, i'm so excited heeheehee

kthxbai!

this time i thought things were real,
you said they were,
what happened?
you were a priority,
was i an option?

Sunday, May 30, 2010

good job, good job!

team malaysia ftw.

i hate sme.
i hate sme.
i hate sme.
stop being such slave drivers, ugh.

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i never said i was nice, i know i'm not perfect.
sure, i can be happy and bubbly, outgoing and understanding.
but with the good comes the bad.
i'm rude, lazy, mean, overly sarcastic, i have a bad temper.
but if you can't accept me for who i am, then it's your loss.
not mine.

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screwed up my moral paper.
those few marks could give me a bloody A, damn it.
i feel so stupid ==
and then maths was bullshit.
which made me feel worse.
sejarah and add maths tomorrow.
let us all pray that our souls rest in peace.

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i just managed to walk into a wall.
yes, i walked into a wall.
now, go along and snicker.

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i cannot wait for the end of school on thursday so i can sleep.
three day weekends ftw.
and then i can watch c3.
and see meganbb.
it will be a good weekend before all the disaster starts again.

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another long night.
i cannot wait to sleep all i want tomorrow.
I CAN DO THIS.
AJA!

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got raped by physics, whoo.
spend the day after school shopping with ze mother.
spend about 100+ LOL
but as my brother says, i was with a walking atm machine :D

saw this gorgeous pair of red shoes by zang toi today.
price also very gorgeous.
WANT WANT WANT

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robin hood waz osm.
srsly. :D
and i managed to NOT study the whole day yesterday.
GUESS WHO'S FAILING MORE SUBJECTS?

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disastrous day.
and yes, i didn't study the whole day again.
AND I JUST PANICKED BECAUSE I THOUGHT I DIDN'T SIT FOR MY BIO PAPER 2 WHEN IT'S ONLY ON THURSDAY
see what exams do to me ==

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niu adorable layout.
heehee :3

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C3 was awesome.
congratulations to team malaysia for getting champions for the south east asian championships.
and to stompers for placing (third or second, i fergot) in the all-girl stunt malaysian division.
and vivacious for getting second in the full routine malaysian division.
and uhm, everyone else :D
but the lighting was horrible so most of the pictures turned out really dark ==

omg, now i can't wait for cheer.
ANOTHER ONE AND A HALF MONTHS :D
and 6 more months till i can join cheer again, heehee.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

the more you give, the more you cry

bring on the rain, bring on the thunder.
The London Eye, December 2009.

To me, "will you be her mum? her REAL mum." will be the sweetest line eveeer.

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"the more you give, the more you cry"
kids are so adorable :'D

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bonamana's been a trending topic for quite awhile.
this must be a friggin record for twelfs.
i wonder how long it's going to last.

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hell to the yeah.
i've managed to remember all the moral values almost perfectly.
which means i don't have to write them a thousand and one times anymore.
*hippo dance*

*

no electricity tomorrow around my housing area from 10am-7pm.
let us all pray that i don't die from heat stroke.
(AN: THERE WAS ELECTRICITY HEEHEE :D)

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this picture made my whole friggin day.

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first essay was too long.
second essay was too short.
fml.

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i've realised i've become such an overbearing person.
making sure people do certain things so they'll be okay.
worrying when someone gets sick or injured.
worrying when i think i do something wrong and asking people if i actually did something or annoying and then being more annoying by apologizing endlessly.
i must be irritating the hell out of everyone :/
i'm sorry :(

but one more thing, i'm sarcastic by nature.
deal with it.

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exam stress finally kicking in.
everything around me is giving me signs that i should really start putting my brains to work.

*

this is purely a note for i'm writing myself and you can choose to ignore it:

dear lydia,
don't you think it's about time you buck up for your exams?
you're constantly doing pointless things instead of studying for your midterms which aren't even halfway through.
you always say suju has given you motivation to work hard but you haven't been showing it lately and do not blame them for being so damn addictive with their sexy moves.
DO YOU REALLY WANT TO DO BADLY FOR YOUR EXAMS?
so, time to pull your socks up and get your priorities straight.
spm is 180+ days away.
YOU. CAN. DO. THIS. SHIT.

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what is up with all the ridiculously long named fan pages on facebook?
stop liking them, please.
and i know i liked a few of them, but why is omgfacts, six billion secrets and gmh invading facebook as well?
they have their own sites, thank you very much.

and to whoever said i joined them:
yes, i did join a few of the omgfacts and gmh pages.
but then i stopped.
and no, i didn't not join the i am awesomex10^5465453 page okay.
don't accuse me of doing something i didn't.

kthxbai!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

awesomepossumsauceepicness

mostawesomepossumsaucebirthdayevaaaaaarrrfankeweveryone.
photographers: michelle hor and justin wong

i was sorting out my music files.
i found fly on the wall.
wtf.
AND THEN I FOUND PARTY IN THE USA
*headdesk*

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"Kenapa kamu eja ibu bapa 'ibubapa'?" "Cikgu, jangan ceraikan mereka!"
"Mengapa 'keretapi' dan bukan 'kereta api'?" "Cikgu, jangan pisahkan kereta, nanti terbabas."
(Y)(Y)(Y)

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i can't recognize the boy's voices anymore :(
i feel so guilty.
BUT THEIR VIDEO IS BEING RELEASED ON THE 12TH INSTEAD OF THE 13TH AND IT FEELS LIKE THEY'RE GIVING ME A PRESENT TOO HEEHEE :D

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i swear that this has been the most epic, awesomesauce birthday in my life.
and one of the best days i've ever lived.
(despite the lack of sleep. there was so much win, i only slept for 3 hours wtf)
epic surprise + epic ninja skills, epic card with epic messages from epic people, epic new phone, epic classmates + schoolmates, not-so-epic chicken dance (HAHA) and just epic epic epic people making my day epic.
oh, and getting COW a month in advance (ilubb, but who do i give it to next? LOL)
i love you guys :')

and the most epic of epic: megan chng standing in my kitchen, holding a birthday cake at midnight.
best birthday present evaaaarrrr.

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i might have an intestinal infection.
yay.

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i can't believe oh my lady is over T_T
i agonized over this drama for eight weeks!
and that last episode made me cry like a baby.
oh, min woo-shi *heart melts*
i have a feeling i'm going to watch the whole thing again LOL

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every single cell in me right now wants to marry siwon.
just look at the man, he's a friggin god.
and he's such a sweetheart.
and a dork.
*swoon*
I SENSE A BIAS CHANGEE!

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oh, sweet baby shissus.
10 sexy beasts on one stage *spazz*

*

"I UNDERSTAND CHINESE"
- Rachel Yong

dinner with the girls was awesome.
thanks for the surprise, bbs.
and thanks for ending the week with total epicness.
ilubugaiz.

lol, this post is full of fangirlism.

and midterms start on wednesday *dies*

kthxbai!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I SWEAR

i, lydia wong, hereby swear that i will study for my mid-terms.
i will have a crash course this weekend.
and the next weekend.
and everyday till my exams are over.
if i talk to you online, or i'm doing something completely useless like spamming facebook, please proceed to slap/screw me or just scare the shit out of me with the consequences of doing badly.
plskthxbai.

Friday, May 7, 2010

flying russian cows

rediscovering my love for photoshop.

IF YOU WANNA BE MY LOVER
YOU HAVE GOT TO GIVE
TAKING IS TOO EASY
BUT THAT'S THE WAY IT IS

i just downloaded a bunch of spice girls songs HAHA

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fail of the day: i said friendster instead of facebook ==
and then i remembered the most epic fail of the century.
a few years back i was having a group conversation with carmen, rianne and megan.
and we told carmen that cows were flying in russia (i keep spelling russie wtf) and that it was on cnn.
she actually ran downstairs to turn on the tv and check HAHA
i love you, carmen :P

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some days, i just feel like curling up into a ball on my bed and just staring at the wall.
today is one of those days.

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i just found out today that the form one syllabus in my school includes music classes.
what even.

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on my way to school today, guess what hitz.fm decides to play?
"AND I WAS LIKE BABY BABY BABY OUHHH"
so, i internally stab myself.
last period of school, someone brought a radio and a cd.
no points/prizes for guessing what song they played as well ==
i am going to start shooting people soon.

and now i'm singing miley cyrus's songs. *dies*

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i have the flu.
i hate having the flu.
i'd rather have a fever.
no, srsly.

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best female interactor of 09/10 :')

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it's either my white blood cells are like virus fighting warriors.
or there's something wrong with my body system ==
i woke up this morning and my flu was totally gone.
OH WELL, WHO'S COMPLAINING?!

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i was at the lrt station.
this dude started picking his nose with his shirt.
then he used his finger.
and then he started rolling it around on his finger.
and then he put it in his mouth.
oh. my. god.

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"read newspaper, read last page only. manchester united, chelsea, liverpool. close paper"
"what's the thickest newspaper? the star. roll up and whack can die you know!"
"walaupun malaysia negara kecil dan terpencil, namun kita telah menganjurkan sukan olimpik 1998 dan memenangi 10 pingat emas"
"if you write badminton, lee chong wei will come and chase you around the school with his racket. if you put squash, nicol david will bring her squash racket, ask all of you to line up and hit your head one by one. if you put bowling, you all go stand at the back there, she bowl one time, you all dua kaki patah"
(Y)

today's bm lecture was so awesome.

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[11:48:57 PM] Megan Chng: ask him to call me and hang up LOL
[11:49:04 PM] Lydia Wong: STOP CALLING STOP CALLING I DON'T WANNA TALK ANYMORE

oh, irony.

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i understood add maths today, heeheehee.
best part is, it's trig LOL
but i'm betting that i'm going to forget whatever it is in a few days.

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poor deon got tricked by us today.
i can't remember ever laughing this hard in class before.

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just got back from swimming.
feels kinda good to be in a pool again after years. (inflatable pools don't count)
but my hair feels disgusting now :(

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can't go for hartamas carnival.
which means no hippo meeting :(
and now my shockwave decides to crash while i'm watching oh my lady AFTER i've finished loading four parts.
fml.

OH, AND MID TERMS ARE IN ONE AND A HALF WEEKS LALALA

kthxbai!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

fashionistaaaa

D*STARZ NUMBER ONE!

spent most of my weekend playing plants vs zombies omg ==
when i should have been doing the 45876213 model essays and karangan and other productive things.
but hey, i finished the game.
that's productive.. right?

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i saw a little boy who looked like the kid from ju-on (it is ju-on right?) earlier.
that's kinda creepy.

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Post-SPM plans (not including hippo, bff and other bonding sessions) :
  • take up dancing again (latin)
  • get into new genres of dance (comteporary, hip hop, ballroom, jazz)
  • trip around the city
  • photoshoot
  • dye hair a funky colour (like pink or something LOL)
  • learn a new language
  • join CHARM
  • take a photography course
  • ELS courses
  • take up piano (again) or guitar
and so much more i can't think of right now.

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i feel so unaccomplished T_T
i never should have gave up dancing :(
excuse me while i go drown myself in regret and unaccomplishment.

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insecurities building up.
i feel like such a failure at life.
fml.

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second break down of the year.
yes, it's only my second LOL
but i refuse to let myself succumb to weakness any longer.
I AM GOING TO PWN

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you know what irritates the shit out of me?
people thinking that cheerleading isn't a sport and that male cheerleaders are gay.
you guys can't even do half the things we do, so just zip it okay?
cheer is as much of a sport as football is. in fact, it's more than ten times harder than football.
it builds strength, stamina and it involves a whole lot of blood, sweat and tears.
so try doing what we do before you open your mouth.
and btw, i think male cheerleaders are hot even if they are gay.
suck on that.

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i can't believe it's going to be may tomorrow.
i've been so tired these past few weeks but i'm not even as half as busy as i was last year.
how the heck did i manage to cope?

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Bala [ da Br0z ] says:
LOL..wait..gonna sign out now..be back in a sex
woah LOL *SEC

bala, you dirty-minded boy HAHA
aiyoooo :'D

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celcom sox today was fun.
but make me sakit hati je :(
congrats to d*starz for making it to the finals and good job to b*starz!
damn sad cannot go for finals because i'll be at camp wtf.
had a lunch date with meganbb after and ended up stuffing ourselves till we didn't wanna walk LOL
pictures are on facebook!

oh oh, the two flyers from pirates looked like izwan and norman O.O

kthxbai!

sean john, calvin klein, donna karan's fashion line
valentino, ysl, ferragamo and chanel.
holsten, gucci, figla, rucci
don't forget my pucci!